"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7
I have to be the craziest person that I know.
Two weeks ago, I made the firm decision to finally go on a mission trip to Uganda next summer. I have been thinking about it since last summer so I thought, "God, here's the plan and this is how it's going to work." I should've known that God was going to say to me that that was NOT His plan. He has the plan that going to Uganda will be even sooner...MUCH sooner. So he continues to drop hints like these verses showing up in my devotionals:
- "Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." (James 1:27)
- "Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and of the Holy Spirit," (Matthew 28:19)
Long story short, Friday night I decide to "listen" and I tell God that IF I research trips and IF I find a trip going to Uganda and IF I get a spot then MAYBE I'll go on it. The next morning I'm finding out about trips through my Internship supervisor. And Sunday, I'm about 85% sure that I will go on this trip. And then Monday morning I read my devotional. (If you are reading My Utmost For His Highest then we read the same one!) This is how it ended:
- "Paul focused his life on Jesus Christ's idea of a New Testament saint; that is, not one who merely proclaims the gospel, but one who becomes broken bread and poured-out wine in the hands of Jesus Christ for the sake of others." (Chambers, Feb 25)
And then my mom sends me an email saying, "You need never be afraid to stand up and do what is right, My child. I will always go ahead of you and prepare the way....Can you trust that I am strong enough to handle any situation?" (Shepard, Today's His Princess Love Letter) And that pushed me the last 15%.
I am all in. I am going to Uganda. I am dropping my agenda, possibly even my goal to graduate on time next year and the certainty of being able to be independent, to pay my own rent, and to get a summer job. It's only 10 days, but it will effectively RUIN my summer.
And I can't wait.